and complicated, yet Though, Lord, deliverest my soul at all
seasons, out of the hand of the adversary, who seeketh
my life by various means, and has tried every new tempta-
tion to beguile and entangle my soul; knowing my delight
and glory is the overthrow of his kingdom of darkness,
in the hearts of poor sinners, whom I feel much for on
account of being misled by his base machinations, where-
with millions are undone, choosing to yield the members
of their bodies servants to sin, and their souls an habituation
myself called upon also, to exalt the Redeemer of the
world, as a Gracious, Long suffering God, full of pity to
the children of men, whose clemency is so great to all,
that each must be his own accuser at His Righteous Bar,
condemned by their reiterated sins, which have ben vio-
patins of His Just, and Holy Law, made to model the life
of man by, or that whereby his actions shall be examined:
for the Law is fixed in the heart of man, and therefore
many are a Law to themselves who never saw the Tables
of Stone, or read the Outward Letter. The Grace of our
Lord Jesus Christ hath appeared unto all men, teaching
them to deny themselves of all ungodliness, and wordily
lusts, that they may live soberly, righteously, and bodily
in this present evil world. [11th 8th mo. 1805.]
Having rode five miles in the burning sun this morning,
I feel like Jonah,
and mourned for a shade, as he did for
his pleasant Gourd, which withered
away for his instruc-
tion. The person who went with me, left me in
Stock-
bridge, at the house of
Abraham Serjeant, who has been
a
missionary to the Tribe of Indians nineteen years suc-
cessively, and
since he first visited the Indians, he told
me It was
thirty. Feeling much distressed by a violent
pain in my head,
first with cold, and then with heat, I
could not take the satisfaction I
would, in case I had been
of the Indian women, whom I felt dear to me.
Kneeling
in the midst, my prayer was offered in faith for them and